You don’t always have to challenge yourself to prove yourself.
They say when you care about someone, it should be selfless. You shouldn’t want anything in return, but fuck it. I want to be selfish for once. I’m tired of reasoning through the “self satisfaction” of trying to reassure myself that the other person does appreciate it. I want an unforced…
Sometimes lost but finds peace in isolation. Concentration—set on—relaxation—set on— clouds of his creation. Cynicism gets the best of him. Maybe it was my fault; I let my tolerance reach the rim. Saying words you can’t take (back—stabbing), it felt like—our whole world was crashing. Rationing the fading good (over)powered by the bad. Wondering when what is yours will become what you had. Yet his mind still a(maze)s me. An (enigma) I have yet to figure. You’re an over thinker. You’re a strong-minded person. You’re a softy at heart. You’re stupid at times. You’re so many things that I can’t put together. I guess that’s why I have so much trouble putting you to a measure. Pressure isn’t even a good enough word to describe what you’re under. Unsure. You were. You are. Unsure. Doubts. Oh, those doubts. Oh, those thoughts.
One of the best things you can do to prevent a situation from getting worse, is to hold your tongue when you are mad. What you say when you are angry will, most likely, not end well. I only say this because when you are angry, you speak before you think about what you are saying. Now we can say that the chances are, you will probably say something you don’t entirely mean and wish you could take it back.
So don’t always feel like you have to say something right away. Take your time. You owe it to yourself.
The universe conspires in our favor. When nothing seems to be working, it’s because something better is in store.
NTS: You don’t always have to try and spare everyone else’s feelings.
I don’t feel entitled to my own thoughts, emotions, and judgment anymore.
It is the individual who is not interested in his fellow men who has the greatest difficulties in life and provides the greatest injury to others. It is from among such individuals that all human failures spring.
— Alfred Alder, author of What Life Should Mean to You
Knowing you’ve done nothing wrong but feeling like the worst version of yourself.
I grew tired of arguing with people, getting mad at people, and explaining myself to people. I’m too much of a kindhearted fuck sometimes because I can so easily see both sides of a position and effortlessly let go of my frustration. I have too much empathy, too much tolerance. If I reach the…